Passion Without Love

I know this will be painful,
So no need to feed me lies
By trying to tell me otherwise.
I can already feel
The surgical steel
Needle break the skin,
Piercing the heart that lies within.
Ensnared by obsession,
The expedition begins.
Her velvet temptation...
Inviting me in.
I've said it before
Now i won't say it again.
I've become more alone than I've ever been

Douloureux L'amour

There’s not enough air in the space between us…
I’m lost in her eyes playing Russian roulette
But ill pull and pull till its fully empty
Empty as the cavity she infested my chest with
Meaningless as my life without her
Worthless blood running down my wrists
Gets on my chest as I clutch my heart
Just say the words, I’ll disappear
Departing with fire on my tongue
Becoming lifeless, last breath leaves my lungs
She sings the same song that I sang in the shower
As she breaks down and drowns in my sorrow for hours
My corpse held to her, like a bouquet of flowers
What I once loved in life...
In death, I’ll devour.

Through Fire's Light (revised)

Pondering down this desolate lane,
where lonely beings cast their empty stares.
Half a night spent wandering through the rain
waiting, listening, breathing spring's air.
Gripping tight to this we know.
The truest, purest moments within the tatters of our lives..
What a scene! Oh, what a sight!
If only she could've been there that night...
The world eclipsed in fire and beauty.
Burning and blossoming in resting stillness.
A phoenix flower frozen in the sky.
So peaceful and so bright,
warm shades of heavenly light
that touch my soul and remind me of her,
making my heart skip like stones along the glistening shore
No beauty in the world will ever compare
to the loving in her smile or the knowing in her voice.
The passion in her eyes like twinkling stars.
locked inside a memory of hours spent with her.
So by day, by night, may we find one another...
Through fire's comforting light.

Indecency

Blame it on me.
Just lay it all down on the table before me.
Spill your blood and call it treachery...
Committing lechery,
Yes you heard me perfectly.
You lust for the ability,
to instill catastrophe
By dealing indecency in secrecy
Behind the scenery
completely discreetly.
Close your eyes so I can...
*slice* *slice*
Now I’ll come quietly.
Don't think twice just bury me whether I’m dead or alive.
I'm just another casualty lost to your deceit.
Breathing so carefree and casually with graceful ease,
You kill me skillfully, so effortlessly carefully it’s almost scary...
With my last breath I start to detest you,
Rejecting wholeheartedly the way you started making me.
This time I will not retreat,
No never again admit defeat!

Drowning in Fire

Love is like drowning in an ocean of fire.
your last resort when you're down to the wire.
Pain is the lie she tells your friends behind your back;
and agony lacks sympathy for anyone who's just like you.
Hope is the last burning ember in the ashes.
The box of her letters i used to practice striking matches.
The passion she wrote has been soaked in gasoline.
The tremors from the aftermath of ashleigh,
and december's ninth symphony was simply a scratch
in drastic contrast to her knife in my back.
Thrashing out in anguish, the angel's the liar!
She's too selfish to save me from drowning in fire...

Sleep Walking

The memory of her embrace
Reaching out to stroke my face
Like a diamond blade cutting through the smoke
Night air rolls over the edge like mist
lingering amongst a field of stones
The echoes of her haunting voice
Wash over me like waterfalls
Left alone to dwell in agony and remorse
I lurk in the shadow of the absence she left behind
Dreaming of her crooked smile
as i walk through the dimness of moonlit streets
Meandering through alleys of breathlessness and doubt
Consumed by a loneliness, redefined.
A heart longing to love like fire
With a passion smoldering in my chest
and a sorrow embedded in the pit of my soul
A cinder of hope burning ever so faintly
Behind the eyes she once so loved...
The eyes that love her so strongly still
Ever so sane,
With endeavor so ill...

Dwelling in Yesterday

Cut from redemption
as i fall from the sky
My sense of reality
has moments left
before it dies
The empty space beneath my eyes...
...and in my heart, is stained with lies
The apathy that I am shown
By those who are fulfilled is prone
to make me want to self destruct.
Bury the blade into my arms
Comfort is found for the crimson is warm
Approaching nervana, the numbness sets in
Two entities fall to the ground...
Snow descending all around...
Grief aparrent by the scars on their wrists...
with "I love you"...
etched into...
the frost on their lips.