life before birth

i rise from the ashes only to fall back down. i build houses of glass with wax in place of plaster. its almost like im asking for disaster! i must become faster than the sorrows chasing after me.. adapt, outrun, outlive, outlast. im a master of passion, it burns like an effigy. the fire in my eyes is hot enough to melt the skies. the inferno in my heart burns all her memories from my life, cutting them out like a knife. the hour the bonds were sliced i ceased to live and began to exist. she says i did this to myself! Calling out for help, searching for a sign.. we live and we die and we keep our hopes up to the skies. We shall take no compromise, only that which exists for our eyes can be seen, only that which appears as sound can be heard as we feel the meaning behind the words and become one with the rhythm of a life before birth

Waxlit Serenade

i aint never crashed so hard
never fallen down this far
i just wanted to be a star
the sunshine inside you heart
like leaves we were blown apart
a tradgedy from the start
we took a stab in the dark
look where it got us
it brought us nothin but jagged cut scars
they think im sick cuz i call it art
i wrote this to show
my life aint no walk in the park
sometimes it gets hard
and so i play the guitar
and sing a song by the rhythm
of your beautiful heart

I’ll never forget your hazel eyes
That blinded my sight with your haze of lies.
Now that I see I’ve been victimized
And my trust in you has been compromised
I regret my transgressions
My heart’s crystallized!
Tears fail to fall for my pores have been tied
And my veins are so mangled
By your fateful demise
I couldnt believe
that my lover would lie
Making me wish to end my life
My faith in you has turned to knives,
Cutting you out from my empty insides.

Passion Without Love

I know this will be painful,
So no need to feed me lies
By trying to tell me otherwise.
I can already feel
The surgical steel
Needle break the skin,
Piercing the heart that lies within.
Ensnared by obsession,
The expedition begins.
Her velvet temptation...
Inviting me in.
I've said it before
Now i won't say it again.
I've become more alone than I've ever been

Douloureux L'amour

There’s not enough air in the space between us…
I’m lost in her eyes playing Russian roulette
But ill pull and pull till its fully empty
Empty as the cavity she infested my chest with
Meaningless as my life without her
Worthless blood running down my wrists
Gets on my chest as I clutch my heart
Just say the words, I’ll disappear
Departing with fire on my tongue
Becoming lifeless, last breath leaves my lungs
She sings the same song that I sang in the shower
As she breaks down and drowns in my sorrow for hours
My corpse held to her, like a bouquet of flowers
What I once loved in life...
In death, I’ll devour.

Through Fire's Light (revised)

Pondering down this desolate lane,
where lonely beings cast their empty stares.
Half a night spent wandering through the rain
waiting, listening, breathing spring's air.
Gripping tight to this we know.
The truest, purest moments within the tatters of our lives..
What a scene! Oh, what a sight!
If only she could've been there that night...
The world eclipsed in fire and beauty.
Burning and blossoming in resting stillness.
A phoenix flower frozen in the sky.
So peaceful and so bright,
warm shades of heavenly light
that touch my soul and remind me of her,
making my heart skip like stones along the glistening shore
No beauty in the world will ever compare
to the loving in her smile or the knowing in her voice.
The passion in her eyes like twinkling stars.
locked inside a memory of hours spent with her.
So by day, by night, may we find one another...
Through fire's comforting light.

Indecency

Blame it on me.
Just lay it all down on the table before me.
Spill your blood and call it treachery...
Committing lechery,
Yes you heard me perfectly.
You lust for the ability,
to instill catastrophe
By dealing indecency in secrecy
Behind the scenery
completely discreetly.
Close your eyes so I can...
*slice* *slice*
Now I’ll come quietly.
Don't think twice just bury me whether I’m dead or alive.
I'm just another casualty lost to your deceit.
Breathing so carefree and casually with graceful ease,
You kill me skillfully, so effortlessly carefully it’s almost scary...
With my last breath I start to detest you,
Rejecting wholeheartedly the way you started making me.
This time I will not retreat,
No never again admit defeat!